Bittersweet

Sorry for my lack of post this few weeks, and laziness took me away from this blog. It turns out that this blog is becoming more of a weekly journal diary because most of the posts were my personal feelings LOL I wanted to share other things too though! 

My holiday is almost over, tomorrow I'll leave for Taiwan and next monday I'll start the new semester /cringe. I'm not really satisfied with this holiday to be honest, because most of my friends here in Jakarta were busy with their college (Indonesia & Taiwan holidays are different). I spent my time mostly at home, helping my mom cook and washed dishes (everyday because we don't have housemaid anymore). I'll seriously miss my home, my bed, my tv, my kitchen, and mostly my MOM. Because life in Taiwan won't be sweet like home. Time to face reality that is college, I hope everything will be alright this semester. Leaving home will be sadder than the first time I left because now I know what will I miss, what will I face back to Taiwan, etc. 

BY THE WAY, this post's title is named under Arashi's new single 'Bittersweet', the soundtrack for Jun's new drama 'Shitsuren Chocolatier'. I watched 3 (or 4?) episodes already and I don't complain. I still have Miura Haruma's 'Boku no Ita Jikan' waiting to be watch, but.. I'm so lazy to start watching. 

That's all for update in life, I'm so sad holiday is over. On the bright side, next month 20th March my family will visit Taiwan! I don't know I should be happy or sad (because that means my chinese will be really tested when I help them around), but I SHOULD be happy. Right? Ciao 

Home Sweet Home!

FINALLY I am home!!! It feels so great to be home. I arrived yesterday and first went to my bestfriend's house, because it's still flooding at my house, got a little damn flu. And finally today I arrived, went home with little boat because of the flood. I feel like a princess here while I felt like a peasant back in my dorm lol. I feel like I never left Jakarta before, but honestly I feel a little out of place because my house just went on renovation when I went to Taiwan, so.. something's a bit different, but it feels GREAT! I can never go hungry at home because of my awesome cooking mom.

I guess I'll miss my home a lot this time when I'll back to Taiwan because I know what will I miss and what will I face in Taiwan this time.

Flood in the Way

I was supposed to fly home today, but because of terrible flood happening in my country I'm forced to change the date to 22nd (Wed). BUT today the flood is getting worser and my dad told me to change it again to 25/26.. Well I guess it's better to spend my time here in Taipei instead of back home and dealing with the flood, I can't go anywhere nor can I meet my friends! And what if blackout come? Gonna have to patiently wait until 25th.. *deep sigh*

At least I'm not alone in the dorm! I still have my best roommate here because she's not going home this winter break. I hope the rain will stop in Jakarta, and everyone will be safe and no serious damage to the house.

Winter Holiday

FINALLY it's holiday!!! It already begin this week though, and I've been shopping and went downtown this past few days. And finally this Sunday I'll be going home to Jakarta! I'll be back to Taipei in 14th February~ 

Some part of me feels excited to go home and another part I feel pressured to back home, I know my chinese is not expert yet.. I hope my parents won't expect too much, but I'm also hoping I'm not that bad too (in chinese). 

I can't wait to meet my friends, family, and eat a whole lot of my home's dishes! D-2!!

Procastinating

I think I have serious problem of procastinating, because usually I tend to take my responsibilities aside.. I have 1 exam left this week on friday, so I don't have classes at all on monday-thursday. I will sleep at 2am, and wake up at 1pm. Today I slept at 3am and woke up 3pm, my sleeping schedule is uncontrolled. I have nothing to do so I immediately took a bath and playing with my laptop. 

What do I usually do with my laptop? I'll check facebook (feeds & games), tumblr, youtube, LJ, mangareader, listening to music, watching videos, and then I'll check my phone too (insta, twitter, path, line games, etc). I spent most of my time with all of these instead of studying D:

I take things easily, end of story.

New Year News

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014! 
So finally it's a new year, and now I'm officially 19!! I'm getting older.. urgh.. 
I was pretty happy because I get to spend my new year with my friends, I got 2 cakes, never happen before and a birthday is a great day, you know. At first I was not satisfied and worried people don't wish me enough but then more and more people give me wishes, I got present from my sister plus my fam's voice notes wishing happy birthday and I just thought, I need to thank whatever I received right now plus be happy in this special day. 

End with the birthday talk. In this beginning of the year there are already 2 big news. FIRST, YOONA and LEE SEUNGGI is DATING and I'm FREAKIN happy! they're so cute together and now I'm rewatching whatever youtube have related to their interaction! I hope they'll last forever and make babies lol

SECOND, OSHIMA YUUKO of AKB48 are freakin GRADUATING. I was like... WTF?? Now I guess this year Mayuyu will finally be No.1, I have really big feeling that'll finally happen. Even though Sasshi is No.1 this year, I feel like Mayuyu always be the center in many performances. But KFC is a big thing this year, I think I already remember all the dance moves. I just hope my Yukirin will be 2nd this year.. 

Oh oh! and this year Kouhaku, Shirogumi won!!! Arashi won!!! They've been hosting for 4 years straight, and the only time they loose was when Mao-chan co-hosting! maotsujun 

That's all for my 1st blog entry this year. I'm happy for everything happened in 2013, it was all meant to be and I don't want to regret anything. I hope 2014 I will crack from my shell and just be more.. talkative and active. That 2 things are so hard to do, as I'm not confident enough as a person. Thankyou God for everything :)

Yuuko's graduation announcement clip (engsub)

End of Year

Sorry for not updating for 1 week already I think? I'm in the midst of finals, though my exams are not everyday, I'll have 2 this tuesday, and it's new year's eve for God sake. Then I'll have to listen to this seminar and make a report, urgh. At night I'll have end of year event at the church, I hope it'll be fun.

Sooo... it's gonna be 2014 real soon, it felt so quick right?? and I'll turn 19 just in 2 days more omg, I'm gonna be old soon. This year, I started my college in Taiwan but I don't think my chinese improved much (as you see on my older post). But I really look forward to 2014, umm.. actually I look forward to holiday which start after 10th January.

Let's see where life take me in 2014! Have a happy new year! (and belated Merry Christmas)

Lowering Head

Why's the title like that? Lowering head is actually mean that I lowered my head too much on my phone everyday. 

Most of my classes in college are boring, I can't really understand what the teacher are saying in chinese so I just play with my phone. Either open-close-open-close my instagram, twitter, path, gossip news, games, etc. I played LINE games such as I love coffee, pokopang, pong, wind runner, candy crush (yeah), those are great medicine for boringness. 

Most of my time in class I did all that (1 class = 2 hours), that's why I don't get many friends in class. Not that I abandoned my subjects, I still can learn from the ppt the teacher give (although some need books).

I feel that this routine of mine since I moved here is not good, my eyesight can become worse. But then everyday I see my phone, at night I see my laptop. I just hope that when I got home my eyesight won't be damaged that much. Fingers crossed.

AND I CAN'T WAIT TILL I GOT BACK HOME! YIPPEE WINTER HOLIDAY!!

Outsider

As you all may know I'm currently studying in Taipei, it has been 3 months by now and to be honest my chinese didn't developed much.. reason? because everyday I still hanging out with my indonesian friends, I eat dinner with them everyday and they're my best pals right here. If I want to improve my chinese, I actually need to hang around taiwanese everyday and living with chinese every second. But my one of my roommate is indonesian, my best friends here are indonesian, not that I complain but, it's really not the best way to learn a native language by hanging around 'your people'.

It's not that easy being a foreigner (plus you're a quiet one), you don't even understand what they're (native) talking about. Yeah I got friends in my class, but I hardly chat with them (let's just say A and B), I just hang around them. It's better than being alone you know (and there are like 2 loner people in my class). Maybe because I don't take initiative to talk first or just go with their flow, but I always found myself silent while they 2 chatting something I don't know (most of it), but it's not like they ignore me though. I try to talk as much as possible but it's certainly not enough. I am a quiet & shy person to begin with and now add my burden with language barrier, I am literally a stone. 

I only say things when there's something to talk about, or to ask about. A only chat with B because she thinks my chinese is not good enough so why does she had to chat with me when I can't understand what she's saying, sometimes I do feel left out. But they're good people because I can still hang around with them, still... I want to get closer, I want to chat with them too! Not just asking and un-important stuff!

I know all of my classmates, but I only talked to... maybe 20% of them. I share greetings with 15% others. I think I'm the nerd and un-cool one in the class HAHA while in high school I'm the average one, GOD I MISS HIGHSCHOOL! I got  other 4 other roommates who's also foreigner so... does that help? It's not enough though... 

I ask myself, "when will this last?" "how long does it take until I can speak & read like native?" I know the time will come, and it MUST come.